LOVE JUNKIE (HAPPY VALENTINE)

What is your love state of mind ?

I usually don't talk about my personal life on the blog or any of my social media network. Even though i get question like are you married ? or do you have kids?.

Today is valentine and I thought I share this with you. Photos and post put together few weeks ago.
Valentine should be about sharing happiness and general love!! , not necessary with boyfriend/lover. But with those who will love. Including family member.

You know, life never goes according to plan and human being are so hopeful for the best without a backup plan. That is, "the big what if?" why could i not conquer love so easily? Did my Mr RIGHT turn LEFT. Or he got stuck somewhere trying to figure out his way.

When I was 20, I wrote a little note of my life plan. To get married at 23 to the best and charming man in the world , have three kids by 28 and so on. I wish I never wrote all that silly things down.

As the years went by, nothing happened. My heartbeat race faster, and faster thinking it can't be true, most especially when my friends send me wedding invitation, i am like oh my God what has gone wrong with my prayer request. Sometimes my thought get me thinking. Oh, i must have been so ugly. I remember very well, racing with time, i kept on panicking every time and worried about other peoples opinion. I even thought i was loosing the direction of my life, than i realise there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

There were so many times in the past, i made wrong decision simply because of the fear of Love. The fear of being on my own, so many times in a row back and forth in a troubled relationship. I Just did not get it. Until i got to a certain age and came to the reality that all that marriage and children dream is out of the window. That was the point i decide to relaxed and just enjoy myself and don't care what people think anymore. Right now i could care less if 2 million women are getting married in seconds. I will burst champagne and be happy for them. I have cut people off because they just refused to mind their own business and they have become too judgemental. It is funny how people act like they are Jesus Christ when their own problem is already a cup full. Most especially Africans, who have this silly ideas, that all a woman should do is get married and have kids, sit at home and cook for her husband. HELL NO. What happened to education and learning to be strong and independent.

After all life is not all about getting married and having children. I know a lot of people will not agree with this. I know many women out there who are struggling alone as single mums and heartbroken with all sort of relationship issue. Some of them which they could turn back the hands of clock and re plan for everything again.

What if i have ended up with the wrong man all this years, i usually ask me self. At this point in my life, i could not be running after any man for any reason, i figure out my own bills and take myself out for shopping. Don't get me wrong, there are good people out there, only few are truly on the same page with what you want. I work damn hard to be fooled or used by anyone in the name of love.

As i grow older every year, i found a back up plan, which is now working for me. To live life to the fullest , be happy, do the things i love and i will not let anyone take my happiness away because they have bad mouth. Regardless of what the future holds, I will always look after myself and be happy.

I am out to celebrate with the people i love and hope you enjoy this post.
Stay tune for how i spent my valentine day!

                   

                                   

What i wore

Hat Olney Boater

Pant Zara

Jumper Milan Collection

Heels Zara

Coat Mango

Photos credit to Jennifer Richard. O

Happy valentine with love from me

Sophia